You know .. this year I am SERIOUSLY NOT IN THE MOOD for Christmas. I tried to get into in by going to as many Xmas markets as possible, I try to find joy in getting gifts for people I love. I sang shitload of Christmas song. Made a lot of cards with Arwen. But.. nothing. No mood. I give up. It is already Xmas Eve here and all I want to do is to jump in to bed with a toffee nut latte and my magazines.
Of course my in laws are wonderful and they did an awesome job with the house and all the gifts but I am untouched.
I spoke to DH , I suppose maybe simply I miss my family and friends. And maybe to me , everyday I feel richly blessed with what I have. Maybe everyday I thank God for my family, my friends and Arwen. So to me, everyday is like Christmas.
Also, the last two years my good friends Dezima , Benson and my God Daughter Alyssa had taken the efforts ( as in their nature ) to visit us in Shanghai for Christmas. I miss them.... They are the most loving and giving people I know. They actually MAKE the effort and when they do , they do it 100% and see it through. Naturally it is no brainer to ask them to be Arwen's Godparents.
I know Dezima for 16 years, half my life. We have nothing in common but she is one friend who really accepts me for who I am. She never DOUBTS me. She always believes in me and she means it. I can't say the same about me to her. I suppose in some way, I always wonder what makes her stick to being my friend. I am not the most positive person, nor the most giving person but she still wants to be my friend and Godmother to Alyssa.
Funnily as I looked at the gift from her this year... I am very amused. I think she is the only person who "dare " to buy me jewelries seeing that I do not like wearing any ( 'cept my wedding rings). But the thing is... she always got them right! The blue star Swarovski necklace, I love it to death. The fine gold heart necklace two years back, really something I will wear and this year a Pandora bracelet. I was about to get one and boy I was shocked to see it as I open the box. I just hold the bracelet and I miss her even more...
I can't wait to go back to Singapore in 5 weeks and spend good quality time with her and my Goddaughter. Having lunches, catching up and just laze with her.
Dezima, Benson and Alyssa.. thanks for making Christmas special everytime . Next year come okay! Or it is too hard to be in the mood!
Written on 24th December 2012.
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